Im backkk. gunna start posting lots of writing here shortly. Back to journey of getting sober

You don’t know me and you dont wear my chains.

Seriously omg from years ago. How do i see it

Missing someone is probably the worst feeling

R u serious lol

Another day sober. Another day fighting off the demons with a clear mind. Pain and torture trying to seep through the cracks but I wont allow them. Drown them out with the self love im gaining. Push them back and scream that I deserve today. I chose today to not pick up, that’s a beautiful thing. I deserve to feel the raw emotions of life today without my crutch. Choosing to do this for myself because I can’t remember what’s its like to breathe anymore. To truly wake up and breathe without wanting to fall right back and depend on the one thing that destroys me. Thinking it was my best friend and what I needed to cope. Bullshit, it was nothing but a lie. A simple mask over the dark truths. Something to chug down and drown out everything eating away at my pulse. I might fall back into it, im not perfect But today. Im choosing not to. Been hiding in the depths of the safety of addiction for far too long. Im beautiful without it. Today, im choosing not to pick up. God, this is a beautiful thing<3